lola guerrero

50-something empty-nest-search-for-God-and-happiness with more than a dash of humor

This Lil’ Light of Mine, I’m Gonna Let it Shine! P.2

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During a commercial, my husband asks,
“Can you scratch my back?”
“Scratch your back? Well, of course.”
It’s the least I can do.

Mindlessly moving my hand up and down his back I stare at my wall and silently ask, “Is this it? Scratching my husband’s back? Is my light shining?”

I do know that as I go around shining my light on the mundane tasks in life, I am being prepared for something WONDERFUL and BIG. With my faith, I’m at the edge of my seat expectantly waiting.

I do know my job is to be obedient to the task at hand.
Even if it is as simple as listening to my sister cry about wanting a baby so much that I can’t even relate. I do understand wanting the “impossible dream” to come true while realizing that it’s just not in the cards.

“So, when you see someone who has a baby, do you fight back tears and feel your shoulders sag two inches?” I ask my sister.

She gives me a quivering, “Yes.”
“Yep, I know the feeling.”

I know I shine bright when I bake salmon and tear up lettuce for a salad so my husband can have his dinner.

And . . . there are blessings in being obedient to being called . . . even if the call is to give someone you love a good back scratching.

I do recognize that a family, like the one on the Discovery Channel, can live in the wilderness with no dental plan and no convection oven, to name just a couple of things I like having, and still be content. And a TV producer wanted to film their life.
Go figure.
The members of that family must be shining lights for each other.

Dear God,

I desire to be a chandelier, not a burning candle.
A chandelier high up on the ceiling of a grand theater in New York.
But, with my high ambitions set aside, I believe my light begins shining at my home
. . . and as I obey your commands in small things, I am being led to larger ones.

God, there are a lot of women empty-nesters out there who, like me, want to make a difference.
Take our hands and guide us to to be a light in someone’s life today even if it’s so small and insignificant that only the walls see our brightness.
Amen, lola                                                             IMG_2956

 

 

Author: lolaguerrero

50 something, mother of two, married, grandson named Napoleon. Love to go to the gym, watch films, act, write, jog, walk 10 miles with my husband, wine and travel. I"m a double tall, NF latte with half a pump of mocha with whip cream.

3 thoughts on “This Lil’ Light of Mine, I’m Gonna Let it Shine! P.2

  1. Pingback: This Lil’ Light of Mine, I’m Gonna Let it Shine! P.2 | lolaguerrero

  2. I can so relate, Lola! I still have dreams of going overseas somewhere and helping take care of kids in an orphanage…….it may yet happen, who knows what God has planned for me in the evening of my life (I will be 67 in a few months), but right now I still have family here that needs me……I have found, though, that we can’t see our own light shining; when others see mine, I am always surprised….

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